Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

After reading Mules' post, I can't help but try to look inside myself, and SEE the those things.

I guess I really still do have alot of "work" yet to do. I don't know if I was fooling myself into believing that I was doing these things, but looking back, it looks like I was just spinning my wheels, and not really taking any action.

I don't know if I was thinking this would be a quick and easy thing, or that since we got back together those 2 days, that I was the one in control-I dunno. I have some soul searching to do.

I really need to begin to detach. I THOUGHT I was, but looking back, all I was doing was hanging on.

It hurts to admit these things, especially since in my mind, I was already doing them.

I have so much to learn, and do, to continue down this road.

Somehow, someway, I WILL make it through this difficult time in my life.

This may be the defining moments of my life, and I must thrive through them. I MUST.

Somehow, someway, I HAVE to detach. It is so very hard to do-easy to say, but probably the most difficult thing I have ever done. I have to do it. For my own well-being.