One day at a time....

[Hope4us]

Rocked.

Again, all completely normal. Now that your M seems to be on the mend, all those pent up emotions are coming to the surface.

I remember the day my W told me she loved me, had always loved me and that she didn't know what the F she was thinking. We were in a crowded bar, sitting next to some friends, listening to one of our favorite performers, and it was everything I could to do to NOT totally break down right there.

That night, when we got back to the hotel, we ML and after W had fallen asleep, I laid there quietly crying for what seemed like hours. I'm sure it was only a half hour or so, but all these emotions came flooding back.

And I still have those moments. I don't let her see them. She already has too much chit of her own to deal with and I don't need her feeling any more guilty than she already does, but there are times when I'm driving that I'm screaming at the top of my lungs "how could you frickin do this", crying the whole time.

Just let it out. It's ok for your H to understand your pain and from what you've written, it seems like he does, but he could get overwhelmed and give up if he thinks he's doing the right things (which he is) and you're still having these episodes.

Does that make sense?