thanks for checking in. I think I'm doing better than I have in a while. When I read my threads when I first got here, I was a complete basket case. I'm still on a roller coaster, and I need to stay focused and keep my calm.
For example, yesterday night was my night with the kids. We just started a weekly trade-off. MW is my night, TT is W's night, although we are both still in the house. I was spending time with D17, she told me that my W had run out to do some "errands". D17 knows that in the past that meant that W was going to the liquor store. My first thought was "she's going to her lawyer to start the filing process". I had to do a quick mental check to stop myself from the usual panic, and remember that it doesn't matter what she is doing. Sigh, one moment I think I want a D myself, and then I'm worried that she is filing. It is very tiring.
Still, I had a great time with my kids last night. I helped S13 practice his music for an upcoming audition, and had a long talk with D17 about her ex-boyfriend and the drama at her school (I just listened!) I'm not sure when my W returned, but she stayed in her room all night.
Ok, here's some more venting about W's weird behavior: She usually sleeps with one of our dogs (the one that is devoted to her, and looks for her all day long). Last night she refused when S13 tried to let the dog in her room. He ended sleeping on the couch with the dog. W told me the last weekend that she is "kinda done with the pets too". She's always been a devoted pet lover. So I guess her WAW stuff extends to the pets now too since she can't get me out of the house.
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