Hope you are feeling a bit better now, take it easy until you do!
My job hunt is pretty varied, I have a wide background, and will try to find some sort of work in the regional town where I live to begin with. So will be targeting more employers with good growth prospects. The adult conversations will be one of the many bonuses for me of getting back into the workforce, once I get my first position again.
Yep, on with the rollercoaster ride. H was very relaxed the first couple of days then moved into the teenager type version which is not so much fun. His family are now noticing the mood swings between the two versions, which is good in that it is not just me thinking it is my mind going crazy!
Discussions continued over the week as to unwinding the "us" side of things, urgency stepped up another few levels, so it is just a matter of time before we go our separate ways now. I do feel like I have given it a good shot and turning things around, and are ready to move on to my life now. I do still feel that there is little chance he will reconsider, or more importantly reconsider AND be prepared to do a U turn but thats just where things are.
So I am now much more focussed on moving myself forward, as is my toddler who is trying to ride a bike for the first time, so need to go and assist!
I recieved some info confirming OW, on the same day so did some people close to H. These people contacted OW and let her know H had also been seeing me. OW did not know this, H had said we were basically divorced. OW seems to have broken it off with H. H does not know that I know about OW.
H is obviously not in a great place at the moment, but seems to still be intent on moving out and currently is directing a lot of his anger towards me. I am trying to sit back and wait for the dust to settle, and make sure things stay calm. I am holding up ok, but it is very difficult in the house at the moment. H is only here for a couple more days before going back to work, so I will be able to regroup better then. My plans have not changed, but I need to up my PMA again. I am going ok in general.
Gee, SR I`m so sorry I haven`t checked in on your before this-been up to my own ass in coming to terms with our separation.
Sorry you`ve had your suspicions confirmed re OW. Tough station. But SR, you`re a tough bird. In the nicest possible way!
You know after all this DBing I initially felt damn! it didn`t work. But then I realised I am no longer a basket case. I have unhooked from a toxic situation. I get to keep all my changes and know what I want in a loving relationship.
I also realise that actually, in moving out, H is probably doing me a huge favour. Something wonderful will come out of this.
((hugs)) SR. I know its hard. And I know how damned hard you worked at this. Keep in touch if you can-if you`re on FB I`ll post you there.I know you`ve great times ahead;just want to hear all about them!
Now, you go squeeze out all the fun you can from Xmas!
