Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Just remember that it's the new you that you need to take care of.

The is so true. And in that spirit just beofre I read that I was on the phone with (x)W and once again addressed what the hell is going on with OM. All this tug-of warring between (x)W and my cousin just has my confidence level in the negative numbers right now and OM is front and center in my mind and a comment I had seen in another thread (from puppy I believe) that infidelity that is just swept under the rug has a rate of occuring again.

I've addressed OM and my concerns many many times, so I'm not allowing it to swept under the rug, but I'm just not getting the results from (x)W that I'd like. This morning she said they did speak last night, but only about the house downstate that they have mutual investment in and that's it. That I needn't worry, I'm the one she wants and needs, blah blah blah.

But it's like buying a tool set to build a house from scratch at a dollar store, you know they're unreliable and are guarenteed to break and in some cases, mess up the job.

I don't know. My cousin really degraded me hardcore last night, thinks I'm just going one day not come back and that it's not fair she likve in a nervous state in her own house.

(x)W on the other hand, apologized for her demeaner the night. She admitted to wanting to rush things too much and pressuring me and understands how that would piss my cousin off and understands what my cousin needs and what she needs has to be compromised for now.

I really think that just the three of us need to sit down for a little pow-wow and clear the air. It's like my cousin is acting like the parent who doesn't approve of who their kid is dating. The tension has to be releaved. I told both of them my feelings of being in a tug-of-war and that I'm already tired of walking on egg-shells in both directions. (x)W was understanding, my cousin, not so much.

The new thing now with (x)W other than my concerns over OM is weird. I guess she didn't truly believe I was seeing a IC or something? Ever since my appointment she's been acting strange, offering words of encouragement to keep my spirits up and not to 'be down' and that I'm the one she's "concerned about", not OM. It's just weird.

Gotta get a wrap on this OM thing, NOW. My stomache is on fire and that is feeling I certainly DO NOT miss.