As for me, the longer this goes on the more I don't start healing. I need a lot of healing.
If you have been going through this for sometime, you are probably better prepared to realize the situation and "more healed" than you think. Like me you need to accept that this is the way it is. When I found out my W and the OM had reunited I was really down in the dumps for about 6 weeks. With the next discovery of how far things had progressed between them, I entered the down phase again. However, I am confident that I will rebound quicker this time around.
This is a slow process, stay focused on yourself and the kids.