I felt the same way and was in a similar sitch. My wife blamed me for it saying that if I hadn't deployed she wouldn't have had the opportunity to do so. It's a load of BS! Deploying is part of your job. She knows this and married you knowing this. STOP feeling guilty--it does no good. It is difficult I know but the sooner you can push this emotion aside the sooner you will get back to being happy. Force yourself to do things to stay engaged on your FOB. Don't you dare hole up in your CHU in your off time.
M-41 ex-W-40 Together--17 years SS-20 D-14 Bomb--2 Feb 09 WAW--6 Feb 09 Officially divorced on 2 Jun 2010!!! ex-W has a boyfriend 8 Jun 2010!!! Off we go into the wild blue yonder!!!!