Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

The thing I am struggling with is letting go of my wife. Letting go, and accepting the fact that no matter what, I have absolutely NO CONTROL over her, or any other person in this world.

THIS is what I am struggling with.

I have to learn and accept somehow, that she is gonna do what she wants to do, no matter what I say or do.

I must start living my life for me. I HAVE to do this - soon.

I also MUST get off this pity pot I am stuck to. What, do I think she is suddenly going to change her mind, apologize, and things will be hunky dory again? NO CHANCE.

I AM GETTING DIVORCED. I DON'T WANT TO, BUT IT IS A FACT. MY WIFE WANTS TO DIVORCE ME. I CAN'T CHANGE THIS FACT.

Last but certainly not least - I have to BELIEVE that I am a good man, and that I am going to be OK - NO MATTER WHAT.

If I can somehow get this stuff embedded into my tiny brain, I BELIEVE I can continue on with this journey. I just gotta figure out how...