Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

I really just want to feel so much better about myself. I feel like such a failure in all of this. I am working SO hard at this, and it just doesn't seem to be helping me. I think the majority of my problem is, I am focusing too much of ME onto HER, and what she is doing.

I have to find a way to get past the pain, and stop accepting all the responsibility for my M failing.

I just feel like I could have been a much better husband for her. And she reminds me of that at every opportunity.

I really have low self-esteem right now.

Wish I could be like some of the people I know that can just flick a switch, and not feel bad about anything like this. But it just isn't in my nature.