feel like giving up - talk to me!

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ST - my H has been a jerk - it's hard to be nice to a jerk. I have listened and expressed to him that I am here and I want to understand what he's going through. I've been supportive. I have...but he has been cold and distant towards me leaving me to believe he is in an EA with ow or even more.

He told me his LL is personal touch but we aren't close. He is distant right now so that is just hard to do. I tend to believe he is manipulating me with the back and forth stuff. I mean his being nice...then not...it's just as confusing for me!

I'm trying to take a step back this week and just try and forget about our R and have a little fun. It's a much needed break from him.

I see the little ways he is trying too but he's got to try harder just like I am. This is a mess and can't get fixed by trying "just a little."

I am trying so hard to give H the benefit of the doubt but his actions are screaming louder than his words.

He has text me a couple times since yesterday - basic stuff - i landed - going to lunch - etc...one call at night (he always calls me when he goes to his room) i made it short - said i was at dinner - he text me right after that "going to bed :)" i didn't know what to make of that happy face.

I guess what I have been doing isn't working so it's time to change some things when he gets back. I believe this is just BAD communication between us. He is thinking one thing and I the other...we are too busy thinking for each other.

Thanks so much for your input I appreciate your time very much.