Not Me...Ever part 2

[Serenity13]

(((Cutter)))

Always a pleasure when you visit.

I am going to follow my gut and do what "I" think is the right thing to do.

I am going to do what I feel He wants me to do.

I am going to be awesome once this is all over.

I feel like a big pile of marble on the threshold of being carved into something fantastic...

Each day for the last 11 months a little more has been chipped away...

Some days there was more chipping then other days...

Carve, carve, carve...

Look what is being formed...

Emotions I haven't touch on in years, beliefs grounded in my God, Faith that grows by the minute, relationships being cultivated in a way they should have been from the get go, joy from the smallest details in life that others sometimes ignore, taking time to do things for me...

Carve, carve, carve...

What is that sound? Laughter, something people around her haven't heard in a long time, whispers in the dark to her little one who is still scared, sacred talks with her and her older one...

Carve, carve, carve...

People see her, she looks different now...What is the change? Weight is lost, hair is longer, eyes are shining bright, head held high, is that a smile on her face when before she just scowled? Is she actually skipping? My gosh she sure the hell is.

Carve, carve, carve...

What is happening now? She is still changing...She is still growing...One day soon, she is going to be something absolutely wonderful...

And that is how I see myself now.