I want to know the answer to P's question: are you really done with ladybug?
Good question.
Still got a little love locked away.
Lets leave it at that for now. As I am still processing the last 2 weeks.
But end of April is fast approaching. 115 days and the exit letter is sent. ( with the breakup cd I made Anyone wants a copy let me know. It has some good tunes on it. ) And I will not live in limbo. My life is too important to me. I am not in for a long haul. I see some people waiting 2 years for the affair to end. Thats just nuts. Life is too short. 2 years for the affair to end. Then a few months of withdrawl. And then hopefully they want to get back with ya. And then you have to decide if you want them back. Then a few years of rebuilding a broken relationship.
Its a huge chunk of time to live in LBS Fog of obsessing over WAS.
In that time I could do many wonderful things , even meet someone and fall in love and have a family if I want that.
I do feel like something has changed.
I just want normal sleeping patterns now. A day where I do not think about all this in some shape or fashion. It sucks thinking about events of all this half the day, every day.
My brain is tired. I am tired.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
