I can take it no more soldiers wife need help

[armywifevampi]

i sleeped all night he text me saying he was on yahoo. i did not answer or got on im i doing the right thing....

its been a battle this last month and this one so far i dont know what to do ive been hiding from everything and my self to im trying hard not to crash again....

i did on x-mass and newyears when he did not call or nothing im so so alone i feel like my world is caving in on me and im trying to jump and i cant im stuck..

i was to leave today to see him im not going he still thinks that i am after i told him i was not ...

is that why he said the D word dont know why but can i say something is it me going throw this MLC or him ...

ive been reading up on it and everything hes doing to me is from a book of what ive been ready like if hes trying to detach to like me the hard part is hes doing it all right...

and not me i need help i need a comback for my self hes doing him i need to do me me me me ...

can anyone help me im trying to do the right thing i am im stubern i guess and im not trying to do it on perpuse im trying so hard to hide my feelings and emotions but there getting in my way ....