It's hard not to be in contact as we both agreed i would let her know every night that i am able I am still alive and kicking.
And you also both agreed to be faithful and monogamous with each other, too, didn't you. Things change.
If you can't even go ONE NIGHT without purusing (like an "ILY/IMY" text message), you will never be able to do the much, MUCH more difficult parts of DBing.
Start with this one thing -- NO CONTACT. One day at a time. Come on here and post if you need someone to talk you down off the ledge from doing it, but start there. DBing isn't complicated, but it DOES take self-discipline. Not only did the pursuit hurt your efforts, but the content of it was way too supplicating.
