Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Almost always more positive than negative in these sitch's IMO.

Yeah, almost, however, it appears Gno hit the nail on the head and the name of the game is "I gave him some, now he's mine........" "Crap he's dropping everything for me, crap, crap, crap!!!!!"

I don't even know where to begin. Guess with events. IC went well, C was amazed at my complete overall PMA about everything with (x)W. C does think that MC for us is a good idea to clear up the remaining issues. C is going to focus our future sessions on my parents, childhood and the impact my cousin is having on suppressed memories.

So, as usual, I stopped off for a quick after therapy, therapy. (x)W was home early from work and asked me to take her to cash the check and to join. Well, went to pick her up and she was lolly-gagging around with her friends in the usual overcrowded party palace that would be 'our house', so no dice on the check. We stopped off and talked for a few minutes. Things were well until (x)W made a mention that OM had to go to the house they bought down state and the water was shut off and if the pipes and all would be ok. So that got the voices going. Then I let my cousin know I was running late from the IC, all completely true, and that did not boude well.

I rushed 'home' as fast as possible as we had to go get a new couch for her S whose moving in. The whole while I'm getting my head kicked in by her with little pock shot comments about me "leaving" and then point blank during the ride to the store "I feel like I'm going to get hung out to dry (something like that) and we're gonna have to talk". But the little comments just kept on flowing all night long.

Finally having enough, I go to bed, and call (x)W to say godd night as requested. And the fit hit the shan. I let (x)W know we were running behind schedule with the moving and with an impeading snow fall tonight, I have to regretfully cancel 'plans' with her and the boys for dinner tonight. This sent her on a complete tangent that I need to "stand my ground to my cousin" and that I'm not being considerate of her and the kids and it's not going to work, and she needs someone to help her out of HER mess.

That is where I drew the line. Never mind the sh!t she's done to me. Never mind the fact that she proclaimed to the entire world, SHE didn't need me anymore,MY KIDS didn't need me anymore, and that life will go on all hunky f'n dorry. She has completely forgotten all of that it seems. I politely and calmly tried to remind her of this, but she wasn't biting. Her underlying message was if I don't drop everything for her, someone else will.

And that's what pointed out to me this morning, I let my guard down and picked up that gosh darn rope I dropped. I wonder now if I'm a crutch for OM? A rebound? Her comments and hidden messages just hit home in a really bad way.

I'm not going to be the rope in match of tug-o-war between the person who tried to keep me a float and help my life go on and the person who destroyed my life. And sadly, the later of the 2, just doesn't see the full effect of what she has done. And yet, I'm the one who's supposed to clean up the mess she made?

She has done zero to say where she is at with OM. In fact I asked her last night what is going with that, and her only answer is "I don't know".

She is the one who claims she can not stand the party atmosphere of 'our house' and waht it did to our family. Yet, she is here every moment she gets a chance.

And now, she is the one to say that this won't work because I'm in-debted to those who helped me keep my sanity as she destroyed every aspect of my life.