Spending time reading passages with you is doing worlds of wonder for me. It's easy for me to get 'stuck', wallowing when I think I'm doing stuff. Fear is a great paralyzer but finding that people, good people, are out there helps dissolve it. I am not alone.
Panic and anxiety about the spouse are lessons you've learned over decades. Yet, the more you grow those tsunami attacks will eventually transition to glurbles tickling your toes at the beach. Or at least, that's happening to me.. though I do see him as a riptide. And I avoid the near occasion of him though there are some things I have to finish up with him on Thursday.
Your situation blows my mind. I am so impressed and proud in how you are doing everything to build the best life possible for you and your bears. And that you're taking care of yourself first (be nice to that damaged ankle).
You're worth it.
*hugs*
And.. thank you for the opportunity to become your friend. It's priceless.
