Checking in on you MWG, I had prayed that things would have much improved for you and your family. I'm sorry that things are so tough. Like I told someone the other day. It's as though life is like a big card game anymore. 3 years ago, God dealt me a new hand. I hated it. I so wanted to quit playing. I finally had to force myself to pick up the hand and do with it the best that I could. Somedays I still don't like it, but I keep playing and life is good.
Going back to something that was said in one of your recent posts. By me being so stuck on hope of R with my x. I now believe that I put my family through so much more hurt and anxiety than had to be. If I could have got my head on straight earlier, put a stop to it all sooner, and moved on without H and his antics. I could have made things easier on those girls. They hurt with every moment I hurt. They went through it all just as I did. We wasted a long time on him and hopes that he'd return. For that, all we got was hurt and it changed nothing. Even though he did not live here. Even if I limited contact. Even if he was cut off from us. He still controlled my every act, thought, feeling. I let him do that. It really really was not worth it in the end. He played me and I let him. I finally decided that I deserved better, my kids deserve better, and MWG so do you.
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
