Another Sad Deployed Soldier/Dad

[Another_Soldier]

I understand what your saying SD, i am just truely having a real hard time with this whole thing. I was the guy that would never get married and there were no women out there that would tie me down then now W came along and BAM!!!

I can't even do my job right now because i just have been so freaakin stressed and don't want to get any of my battles killed. I do serious work and can't even focus no mater what i try. All i can think about is...Does she want to be with me? Where do i stand with her, husband or the guy that just pays the bills?
These are all things and i'm sure you've had some similar questions in your head but there is more than that and they won't go away. I try to stay as busy as i can but you know how war is. Your over here to and there is a lot of down time some times and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

I am VERY comitted to working on the M but just feel so alone and lost, depressed, can't eat, throw up for no reason, go to the latrine to just cry and i am just hurting sooooo bad and don't know what to do any more.