Sometimes D is not necessarily a bad thing. It still hurts like hell but at least you can focus on something other than "getting a divorce". I do not know what is right in your sitch but I have been dealing with the threat for two years and from an emotional perspective, I am spent. I do not want to give up but I also want to be realistic.
Try not to get too down; be confident and know things will get better (at least that is what I keep telling myself).
