Today was one long day , so this is a drive by post
I had my appointment with the IC and it was an eye opener in many respects. I think that this will be a really useful exercise for me in terms of getting to analyze myself and having the input of a trained person.
He did give me much food for thought and homework!!! in the form of some reading to do. I can already see my way to a saner 2010 and am glad that he is in my camp.
Oh well, there goes the Shoe Fund Money!!!
Talking to him has left me in a contemplative mood. One of the questions he asked was whether I would describe myself as controlling and I said no, but that my H had. IC noted that he had just met me so could not form an opinion but was led to ask the question based on certain things I had said during the session. When I got home I was discussing with 2 of my chosen circle and they both said they would describe me as having controlling behavior or being controlling. Hmmmm...Food for thought indeed.
I recognize that there was some validity to some of H's comments but at the end of the day this does not justify his behavior.
This is a journey for ME to get ME in the best , most healthy place possible, so self examination will be embraced and its all good. I don't shirk from asking myself and aswering the hard questions, even if I don't like the answers.
I feel a sense of calm. I am by no means perfect - who is? - but I am working on myself. This is not about H and his behavior. This is about me and who I allow myself to be.
Well, it was a long day. I got a flat tyre today and before I could even lift a finger to change it, a gentleman dressed in a suit pulled over and changed it for me. Chivalry is certainly not dead or even comatose. It is alive and kicking. It is great when you can depend on the kindness of strangers!!!
