Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Puppy,

I got it.

I just have to accept it.

I really have NO choice do I??

I want to "fix" this/her, isn't possible.

Puppy, have you seen/heard of a sitch quite like mine with multiple partners/lying/wanting to work through it, and then completely doing 180?

I don't want to pigeon hole myself, but my sitch seems rare. I dunno.

Also, had contact W my L, he didn't seem so concerned about what happened, rather, he was concerned about this kind of thing happening alot. He didn't think it had any impact on my case-so that is good.

Am I dumb for STILL wanting my M?? I feel stupid for still loving her and wanting my M to work.