First session of the year with IC went pretty well. Asked about the holidays and my mood at having things split the way they are. I told IC that naturally I was a bit sad about it but I also realized that there was nothing I could do about it so I was determined to have a few good days alone - which I did. I know the dogs were very happy about the extra time I lavished on them.
During the session IC asked point blank if I felt that W was seeing someone else now. I replied that I did not know and quite frankly that I did not want to know as long as the kids were not affected by it. There is wording in the SA that says that neither W or I would have overnight guests of the opposite sex if the kids were present. I also know that W and I met and were intimate while she was separated from H #2. But I can only control what I do - which is the way it should be.
To be fair, IC also asked if I was looking elsewhere. To this point I have not and have very closely guarded my heart for the better part of eight years now. I wonder if it is time to not guard my heart that closely - to let things happen naturally and own those actions...
Me 52, STBEX 52 D 17, S 12 M 20 years Em Sep since 2002, Phys Sep Sept 2009
