Thank you Ruined for your kind words as well, at the time I was dedicated to a life as an addict and truth be told I always thought that was the single most painful experience in my life until I found myself here and well you know the rest.
I know how you feel. My father was a junkie; now he's just a drunk. As painful and awful as *that* was, I'm oddly grateful for the experience of it. That sort of experience makes you strong. Really, really, really strong. You come out of it with the attitude of 1. I'm a victim and nothing I do has any impact or 2. Hell no, I'm NOT a victim.
Actually said this to my H. last week. As shitty as our sitch is, I'm kinda grateful to be going thru it. If nothing else, it's making me stronger, and reminding me of who and what I am. He seemed a little bit stunned, which was kinda a good thing.
M & H: 40 M: 5.5 T: 7.5 OW: 7/09 Bomb: 9/09 Sep: 3/10 H files 7/10
