Fear of how I would be judged today and shame at how far I truly allowed myself to fall back then...
However I am thinking about it more and more lately and no matter how low I got then, I would still rather keep someone from that kind of life.
Maybe it is a sign because it sure has been on my mind an awful lot these last few weeks.
The book isn't based on my experience here rather my experience as a drug addict.
Start writing. It is admirable that you've stopped, and been clean for so long. I've known alot of junkies, over alot of time. Many of the them have dedicated their life to being an addict.
If you can help just 1 person, then it is entirely worth it.
Weird side note, just ordered a bunch of books an hour ago, including 'Dopefiend' by Donald Goines.
M & H: 40 M: 5.5 T: 7.5 OW: 7/09 Bomb: 9/09 Sep: 3/10 H files 7/10
I've known alot of junkies, over alot of time. Many of the them have dedicated their life to being an addict. 
