thank you for your advice. I told W that her relationship with the other dude is her business... so I am not gonna go for confrontation there. thank you for the advice though!
love the reinforcement of the lunatic line. that is for darn sure here. It was not productive at all-- though if you see my other post I really think, even if this was an EA, that me knowing about it in some ways has freed her up to me a little. She had shut me out for so long, I think feeling like she was confiding in this peckerhead-- and that I wouldn't "understand". I told her I could totally understand how and why she could do such a thing.
I was writing my rollercoaster ride note and then just read your post..
you will be shaking your head right now...
I DO appreciate what you had so say, and I am listening to it, and am working on those things.
Trust me, I am planning on getting to town so I can be with J and W. Despite what the alien says about me not wanting them or ever wanting to have a relationship with them, they are the most important thing to me. I want to be a dad for them, and of course, I have my own selfish needs that I just love being with them.. they are so much fun. and really pretty amazing. J can do the 7-14 lego's... its amazing to watch. I think he's gonna be an engineer or organic chemist or something. W has his grandfather's and mother's california blood running through his veins. he's a surfer dude, though has never lived anywhere near the surf.
as for the time-- I'm getting really good at chipping.
I play guitar (have a les paul) and am working on learning Panama.. which is a blast to play.
but thank you again, so much, for your thoughtful post. I take it all in... I was basically in a water-boarding torture device for particularly the last 2 years... now I'm out and its like "what the hell happened? where is everyone?
