On a daily basis I doubt myself, I question myself, I feel suffocating guilt all day, everyday and there is still that stupid piece inside of me that is screaming at me "Do you know what he is going to do when he finds out you did this?"
Yes, I will admit it, I still care how he is going to react however I push through that because it shouldn't matter to me...
He left, he cheated, he did all this - Not me...I honored God, my husband, our vows and myself...
I was willing to do the work to repair the damage I didn't even know about because my H didn't have the balls to come to me before throwing it all away.
So if he is a little uncomfortable on a monthly basis that is the price he gets to pay for his "newfound freedom", and eventually I will be able to look forward to a day with no guilt.
