I wish I had something to say to make it all better but we all know it doesn't work that way. What I can tell you is that from all the support and advice I have seen you give to everyone else as well as what you have overcome in your own stich you are a awesome individual who had nothing to be ashamed of. If I was you I would go look in a mirror and be proud of what you see.
Hang in there bud.
ME:35 W:34 D:10 D:08 D:06 S:04 Together 16y M:10 Bombed 12/18/09 MO:12/18/09 Family is the completion of life, With out family I'm just a empty shell.