how to 180 when you've been too independent?

[avermont]

Oh, errgghhh...the tenant just wrote to both of us, reminding us that X had said the rent could be reduced if the tenant stayed on (first time we had a short-term rental)

So now I need to wait until X replies, because I really don't remember what they had agreed on.

And you know--I don't want to talk to him. I don't want to email him. I don't want to "take advantage" of a "possible meeting" to show him how fabulous I am.

This is a change.

Now, as a wanna be Buddhist, this is "aversion" not non-attachment.

It means I still let X control my weather. But it feels a bit like f*$& you! anger, too, and that feels...sorta...good.


Oh--and that should have been "rending" of garments, not "rendering." That's what you do to fat!