A Choice

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S2..

I will never give up, but it sure is hurting. More these last few days. I am at the point though where I will not call, text or initiate any kind of contact.

W told me the other day. Give me space, do not pressure me. I try to come back to the house but feel as thou if I come in you will jump me and make me feel bad. So she does not come. She said, I can come by to visit or talk with you. 5 mins could tuern into an hour, hour into a day and so on, if just keep the pressure off. R talk, OM talk etc....

I mentioned "retrouvaille" and told her it was for people like us, going thru what we are going thru, trying to make another go at it. She said she would be interested.... baby step.

Anywho... today was a good day. No fears, low moments etc... laughed alot with co-workers and all. W's X friend keeps texting me telling me to have a great day. Sent me music via email. Told me thru text to go home and listen to it, it was our music....

I did text her today telling her to stop texting me and to not contact me anymore. My W does not like her and this could be seen as something she would hold against me for talking to her. maybe think I am doing the same crap she is doing and things get even more complicated.

I do not like this other lady all of a sudden showing interest in me. She does not seem to be taking the hint.

Anyway S2, it was great to see you here. How is your health? I prey very well. been thinking 'bout cha!

Come back....