People kept telling me FL doesn't play when it come to child support so I am guessing this is what they mean.
Because my H works for a prominent company as well as being retired military, he has no escape.
This was never where I wanted to be and it took me a very long time, a lot of soul-searching and numerous prayers to get to this place.
On a daily basis I doubt myself, I question myself, I feel suffocating guilt all day, everyday and there is still that stupid piece inside of me that is screaming at me "Do you know what he is going to do when he finds out you did this?"
Yes, I will admit it, I still care how he is going to react however I push through that because it shouldn't matter to me...
He left, he cheated, he did all this - Not me...I honored God, my husband, our vows and myself...
I was willing to do the work to repair the damage I didn't even know about because my H didn't have the balls to come to me before throwing it all away.
So if he is a little uncomfortable on a monthly basis that is the price he gets to pay for his "newfound freedom", and eventually I will be able to look forward to a day with no guilt.
(((Hugs)))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
