Thanks Aver, I'm not sure how much wisdom I gained but any I have I probably learned on here!
Even though you weren't married 23 years together (did you live together all that time?) basically IS a marriage. That is a long time to be committed to someone. Your BF knows it too. Sorry I can't remember how long ago your bomb happened, but if it's only been a month or so, or even 3 mos ago, be sure to give yourself time. That isn't a very long time. To me, it sounds like you are doing really well.
I keep a post it on my computer that says "It's not about me. I can only control me". I have to remember this every day. The walkaway will do whatever he will do. This, um process, for lack of a better word, we keep hearing is a marathon. Coming on month 9 for me & sometimes it feels like 9 yrs. but then again like yesterday we were together. Going to a good C will help too. I will keep checking in & sending positive thoughts! ((((Avermont))))
