Trying to move on

[ClingingToHope]

I hear you MHL, but I'm not sure I'm going to be able to do that until the process gets started. In fact, my major weakness in this whole separation is my inability to shut my brain down.

That's something I'm going to discuss with my IC on the 10th. I've never even thought of taking anti-depressants or anything of that nature. But for eight months I've been on an interesting cycle. I pack my days and nights as full as possible so that I don't think of my sitch. Then when I exhaust myself, run out of things to do and lay down, my brain zeroes in on it. I never just chill.

Part of it is that I am addicted to being in a relationship. I've always had somebody to talk to at the end of the day.

Even if W and I had little to talk about the last 2 1/2 years we were together, she was there and if she didn't feel like talking, then there were the girls to play with.

Even now, I'm using this board and FaceBook to fill the void.