I had the opportunity to do alot of thinking today. I am at the point where I THINK I am comfortable saying that my M is over, and there is no hope to repair it.
Now, I must begin the next part of this journey, and start to plan for a future w/o my W.
Hope is something that has repeatedly kicked me square in the N.U.T.S.
I begin to heal - tonight. I will no longer let her hurt me by making me feel bad for what she has done. I take back that power from her. She has NO power over me anymore.
And now you are heading in the right direction. You can choose to remain open to working on the M, if she convinces you she is sincere in wanting to do so. But, you continue down the path of saving and healing yourself, for yourself and your kids. The rest has to sort itself out.
Understand you will probably cycle back and forth for a while. It's a lot easier to deal with when you know it's coming. It takes time, but you are heading in the right direction.
