Life Update...

[theotherhalf]

Thank you peace, how are things for you. I pray that they are well.

BH I do my best to keep all contact with exh at a bare minimum. But to be truthful, he really doesn't bother me anymore. I learned sooo much over the 2 years I spent here and reading books. The stuff that comes out of his mouth, it's just words. I've loved that man for a very long time. I know him better than anyone. I "see" things so differently than whats on the outside. I keep hoping that one day he'll be better. That he'll find peace. But if I'm honest with myself, I don't think it will happen.
So talking with him, I don't want to, but, I do care about him. Always will. So I will. But again, bare minimum, it's all I need to see how he is. He's always claiming he wants to be friends. That will never happen. To many hurts. He still tries to hurt me but he can't anymore, I won't let him. I love him too much. I hate him too much. Does that make sense?

Thank you AB