I am back to work today. Most of the people are still off because tomorrow is a holiday again.
Last night me and H watched a movie with R. Gere and Saron Stone and another lady with an -ic in the end, Davidovic I think. He left his wife for his GF and then right when he decided he wanted to marry his GF, he had a car accident and died. Karma is a bitch and then you die...
Of course I got a bit affected and we had a small "talk" while in bed. He said he cant take me being always worried and questioning him. I didnt accept that and asked him what he meant by "questioning" and "always". Because, I swear, I dont call, I dont check up on him, I dont investigate his whereabouts, etc etc. I am TOO trusting if I have to say something... I asked him if he thought I was irrational. What LESS could I do to make him feel comfortable? He reluctangly agreed but said he FEELS this way... He said he is TRYING very hard not to react to my "worries". The convo ended with me saying to him that if he lies again to me, he is dead. Literally. DEAD. That's why I want him to make a Life Insurance. He laughed (but looked a bit scared-LOL).
I brought up his lack of sex interest. I didnt want to start a discussion about it, I just said it bothers and concerns me. He only said, "that doesnt mean he is elsewhere with his mind or heart".
Right now, I am facing the following: I talk, he listens, he may say something but he NEVER elaborates, explains, shares his thoughts/feelings etc. We talk and in the end, I leave the convo with nothing new added from his side. It feels like talking to a wall... K
He laughed (but looked a bit scared-LOL).
