Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
A quick update...yes, I'm hunkered down for the night with my good pal and her family. Safe. Warm. Homey. Ankle...check. I have an appt w/ specialist Thurs am. S16 is tucked away with a good family as well. He is evaluating his options and his choices, and asking good questions. I am proud to be his mom. My mother (visiting from another state) requested a dinner meeting. If you're not a part of the solution, you're part of the problem. Gypsy, today's message, about letting go of your FOO really helped me see that there are some who would just like me to stop, to make this all go away. Nope. Sorry. I respectfully ended the meeting when it turned south, informed her that she had crossed a boundary, and left. Hard to do, but necessary. I wished her a safe journey home and told her I love her. And felt really good about it. Kerry, I might need some help moving some furniture, at some point. See 'ya in the alt. But, it's just stuff. I WANT MY RED COUCH THOUGH. IT's MINE. Got my Superboots, check. Hope they still fit. It was a long day, but it was actually pretty good. Many thanks for the fly-by hugs and prayers. Awesome for Goldey's PMA, although I think I would be okay without as well. CODA meeting tomorrow. Looking forward to that. Hugs, hugs, and more hugs. And a couple of purple puddles. It is Oregon, after all. Peace.
Your strength is absolutely amazing. It is good to watch (albeit online lol) you take back your life. You are on the right path. No one deserves to be abused.
YOU GO GIRL!!! (I will be your personal cheerleading section...)
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Thanks for the call.. sorry I missed it. I left a message with my cellphone number so that doesn't happen again.
Great job on identifying what works with your mom and what doesn't. You're wonderful.
Here's today's passage:
January 5, Accepting Help. The Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie.
Some of us have felt so alienated that we've forgotten we're not alone. We've come to believe that we have to do it ourselves. Some of us have been abandoned. Some have gone without love. Some of us have gotten used to people never being there for us. Some of us have struggled, had hard lessons to learn.
God's there, always ready to help. There is an ample supply of people to care about us too. We will, if we want it, receive love and support, comfort and nurturing. If we take the risk to ask for it, help is there. We can draw on the strength of our recovery group and allow ourselves to be helped and supported by our Higher Power. Friends will come, good friends.
We aren't alone. And we don't have to do it ourselves. We're not doing it to ourselves. There is no shortage of love. Not anymore.
Today, God, help me let go of my need to do it alone and my belief that I am alone. Help me tap into Your Divine Power and Presence, and Your resources for love, support, and friendship. Open my eyes and heart so I can see the love, help, and support that's there for me. Help know I am loved.
Hey Ms. Gypsy. Glad we connected. So, I'm in my car, driving to the CODA meeting, and I had a repeat from two weeks ago. Panic attack in the car. Heart pounding, light headed, frightened out of my mind. What is it I'm afraid of? It's not like it's my first meeting. I arrived early, hoping I'd run into someone before the meeting but instead sat and waited for a good stretch of time until the crowd started to trickle in. Starting to feel better. I know a lot of adults have a fear of public speaking, or sharing in front of strangers. Obviously, this is not one of Goldey's problems. I shared a small bit of my story (leaving abusive Husband) and got my Newcomer's Coin. Still no sponsor. But a very worthwhile meeting. The ankle hurts, bad. I finally got in to see Dr. today (moved up my appointment). New meds, more rest. Let's hope it starts to get better soon. Got a note to take the rest of the week off. No argument from me. Leaves me free to get into new housing. Tomorrow, IC at noon. I'm sleeping in. It's late, I gotta get some rest now. love, goldey
