I really do want to change myself. My biggest thing I need to change is I am so needy when it comes to her. She was always there for me, always my everything. If something happens, I have a bad day, whatever, I still want to call and talk to her. I need to stop being so dependent on her.
I have to start DB'ing the correct way, people on these boards have been telling me things since November I should have been doing, but my emotions always take charge and I screw it up. I am going to put this in God's hands and let what happens happen...I want to make my marriage work and be with my wife, whom I find the most beautiful woman in the world, forever. But I can't FORCE her to feel the same way. We used to be so in love. I need to become the man she loved before. Not sure it will work, but what I am doing sure isn't.
