Sorry about the rant. I am just processing all this. And I will see how my thoughts are in a week. But its the start of a different feeling. Just not sure exactly what it is.
Cutter,
You and I have had very similar days today my friend.
Indifference.
Complete indifference.
We put ourselves through this mess because we love them. But there are limits and there are only so many times you can be kicked in the teeth until you say no more. No more hurt. No more pain. No more WAS. I am done. I am finished. Stop the train, I'm getting off here.
For me I am actually a bit worried about how similar our paths are.
IMO Ladybug is losing control over her life now, or maybe she is now realising how little control she has. She's lashing out at you while at the same time trying to gain contact. You know this. She isn't going to be nice to you - you know that too.
I'm drained today. Completely drained. Whether it's lack of sleep or emotionally distraught I don't know. However I don't want to comment any further until I know I can do it justice.
Take care cutter. We will need to sort out a time to speak soon. Thinking of you!
Me 36, W 34 | D 8 | M 3.5y Sep 2Aug09 | Left 6Sep09 | OM in 10Oct09 | NC 17Nov09 | Gave up caring - Jan 2010
"Have integrity. Do what is right, not what is expedient." "Delay is the antidote for anger"
