Not Me...Ever part 2

[Gardener]

Serenity<

(((Gardener)))

And honored to call you my friend.

The honor is all mine.

For you ~

Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls for he has no one to help him up.
Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

Thank you.

For YOU!:

I had these lyrics framed and hanging in my bedroom for months. It represented my goal. Haven't looked at or read them for a while. Mary Chapin Carpenter: my favorite singer/songwriter. Today I re-read them. I believe I made it to the beginning of my goal, finally!

You did, too!

www.rhapsody.com/mary-chapin-carpenter/the-calling

Click on track 13's title, "Bright Morning Star", if it doesn';t play within a few seconds, then click the play arrow to the left of it. I believe they only let you play the entire song free one time.


Bright Morning Star
by Mary Chapin Carpenter

Last night I dreamed my head was in a fever
Last night I dreamed it never was so far
To reach a shore of safety and redemption
And to gaze upon a bright morning star

I dreamed I was by friends all but abandoned
I dreamed I was alone but for my scars
And blinded by the tears that fell like water
No more to see my bright morning star

The streets of dreams never looked this lonely
The streets of dreams never felt this hard
I heard my voice barely of a whisper
As the clouds denied a bright morning star

Sometimes this life is no more than a moment
And sometimes the light is lost unto the dark
But courage hears the sound of dawn approaching
And each our own bright morning star

I woke to find every window open
I woke to find the heavy door ajar
And I walked outside and stood upon the hilltop
And gazed once more on a bright morning star

I walked outside and every bird was singing
As I found again my bright morning star
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[rockedworld]

((((Serenity))))

You made me cry too! But not out of sadness... because your strength is so inspiring! Because you are handling yourself with such grace and dignity! Because you have a way with words that speaks to the deepest places of the heart that any of us who have struggled with this decision can understand... on a "heart" level.

OK... now I have to get back to work too!

But first, I want you to know that I am praying for you, for the peace that came with that decision to soften the rollercoaster of emotions you are feeling.... for the peace that surpasses understanding to settle in your heart and mind today.

[Serenity13]

Oh Gardener....



What beautiful lyrics - What a beautiful song - You made me cry twice in as many days - Now Kara and I both have raccoon eyes at work.

I dreamed I was by friends all but abandoned
I dreamed I was alone but for my scars
And blinded by the tears that fell like water
No more to see my bright morning star

And that is how I feel when I lay my head down at night.

[kara]

Serenity,

I wasn't crying out of sadness,so don't feel badly. I guess your way of expressing yourself was so moving. And because I know that your boys are always uppermost in your thoughts. I could feel the love and strength coming through.

Anyhow (fixing makeup at desk), racoon eyes are sooooo not good at work, so getting it together.

[rockedworld]

What beautiful lyrics - What a beautiful song - You made me cry twice in as many days - Now Kara and I both have raccoon eyes at work.

That would be three of us....lol

[Serenity13]

((((Rocked))))

Your words took my breath away my friend and left me in tears once again...

Thank you.

No one has ever spoken to me quite like that - Spoken to my heart like that - I would hug you to pieces if you were standing in front of me...

Then we can get Kara and go shoe shopping

You are always in my prayers my friend - Never going to change.

[Serenity13]

Girls we are a mess today lol...

But as I have learned it is a good mess...

Lucky for me I work in an internet based business so no one sees me crying unless I step outside my office.

[Puppy Dog Tails]

OK, it's getting like an Oprah episode around here now. I need to go eat some ribs, or scratch myself, or tune up a car or something . . .

Puppy

[Virtually_Handsome]

I think I may have to go throw up....

(((((Serenity)))))

[Gardener]

Serenity,

I dreamed I was by friends all but abandoned
I dreamed I was alone but for my scars
And blinded by the tears that fell like water
No more to see my bright morning star

And that is how I feel when I lay my head down at night.

I prefer to picture you like this:

I finally slept peacefully and awoke to watch the sunrise...It was freezing outside but I took my coffee out there on the porch and watched God wake up the world - In that moment, my decision had been firmly made.

when I read and listen to this:

I woke to find every window open
I woke to find the heavy door ajar
And I walked outside and stood upon the hilltop
And gazed once more on a bright morning star

I walked outside and every bird was singing
As I found again my bright morning star