My BFF phoned me with a little bit of news she had heard about H and his travels. As I have noted previously, my H is the Man of Mystery who at times comes and goes with a vague approximation, if any, of when he will be back. In 2009 I would have been interested and would even have spent much of the day dissecting and analyzing what it meant. Today I just listened politely then told her even more politely and kindly that I had Left it Behind in 2009. That I was not interested and indeed would no longer be discussing H because it was in no way, shape or form productive to moi. She took it well and I don't think I was too harsh. She is my BFF after all.
A funny thing happened on the way to 2010. I DECIDED that I was done,finito, finished with my foolish behavior. To wit, focusing on H, talking about H (execept to you guys, LOL) and obssessing about H. Let's add, pursuing H. The last one is not a problem because disrespect and deceit are not exactly a turn on.
The other interesting thing was that I saw some of my H's friends today. Now, last year I would have avoided them like the very plague becaue I would be wondering do they know? Have they seen him with anyone? Today, I SASHAYED over to them with my brightest smile and chatted and laughed for a while. Let them tell him how fabulous his W is looking.
In 2009 I forgot that I was a diamond and not a piece of cubic zirconia. But guess what H? My memory is back...
