My concentration for work is non-existent. My W is constantly on my mind. I pray a lot. I pray for God to give me strength, to give me wisdom, to work within my heart to help me become who I need to become. I also pray for my W. I pray that that the holy spirit would guide her and work within her heart. I pray that God would guide and direct her during this time. But it feels like I have this dark cloud that just hangs over my head.
I spoke with a DB coach today. She suggested that since I was such a jerk in the marriage a 180 for me would be to act lovingly to my wife regarding the separation agreement which I did.
I sent her an email acknowledging that I was open to her proposal for the agreement and that if there were other items in the house that she needs, she should let me know. Obviously no response from her.
I am ready for the 2x4's if I screwed up by not being aggressive per Puppies advise.
