Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

Really Cutter? I've been doubting myself. Thanks.

I just can't see how to revive this M. It's like beating a dead horse. I just read your thread and I'm feeling the same I think. Don't think I could have him back. Seriously.

I did contact him today for money and of course he told me to go pack sand. I'll continue to politely ask him everyday. This is just further proof to me of what an "alien" he is.

Just continuing on with my parallel life... not even looking over to see what he's doing in his. I can't work on me if I'm looking over there. I am feeling happy thinking of just being a better me and getting on the other side of this someday.