K4D It's a Wonderful Life

[K4D]

I think what isn't or wasn't being noticed is that I realize I cannot control the situation. I had already come to that realization.

I am frusturated by what is happening. I let my frusturation hit to much last week with my W and today on the boards because I didn't think anyone was seeing my point.

It just came right out as I am judgemental and controlling or trying to control a situation.

I cannot control the situation. I am opposed to what is being done. But I can't control it.

I listed my goals to start focusing on those. That is what I aim to do.

And yes, the lights should have been turned out earlier today and probably by me had I not become frusturated by thinking that nobody is seeing my point. Maybe nobody agreed with it. I am getting used to that.

I do accept that other people have their beliefs and opinions. I accept that I have mine. I accept that they are not always going to be in line with others. I think the same should be accepted by others.

It does no good to debate opinions or get feathers ruffled by opinions. Opinions are what they are. Beliefs are what they are. I did state my boundary to my W and that is done. Whether she chooses to respect it or not is not in my control. I would hope she does, but if she doesn't, I have to live with that.

I have my goals I am going to work on for me. It doesn't include terminating the future with W. But it does include me getting my own life going this year. And it does include that I am going to have opinions one way or the other as this process continues. They may be rejected and spit out or they may be acknowledged and even considered. I don't know. But I will accept the outcome whatever that may be because I have no other choice. I won't be in agreement with it. But I will comply with it.

Kevin