H didn't even get S19 a card, so I texted him and asked why and how can he do that to a child he raised? H said I texted him a Merry Christmas but my son texted him first in the morning and H waited until 7 at night. H said and I quote "I knew this would start." Well, what did he think was going to happen? I mean you claimed he was your child too for 13yrs. and then not only did he leave me and D13 but he left S19 that only knew him as his dad.

So now I don't know where to go from here. I'm a mess, he told me to leave him alone about this stuff. Our D13 says he goes from being nice to being mean when she is with him. Don't know if it is a MLC or depression or what. All I know is that I don't know who he is and I want my old H back so badly. So I guess I messed up by telling him about not getting S19 even a card right? Should have zipped my lips. I just can't stand to watch any of my children hurt and I knew this would hurt S19 and it did. Our D13 ran inside with her presents and went and hid them so son wouldn't know he got her presents and not him.

I don't know if H is trying to hurt me or my son. He knows how I feel when he does this kind of stuff. Where do I go from here? Please help.


M 41
H 35
D 12
S 18
Separated 11/08