here we go again

[Jstar]

Thank you for the Happy New Year. Hope you enjoyed.

I really don't know what's going on, I feel like I've checked out, if h and i speak it's arguing. I have a lot resentment towards him, neither of us trust one another and both feel each other is playing a game on the other person.

I don't know if i want to be married to him, i do and i don't. i don't see him changing, yesterday i was not feeling well and he knew it but didn't say anything about it or offer to help, but continued to talk about himself how sick he was. blah blah blah. acknowledgement would have been nice or anything i can do, but it was totaly ignored.

he texts me/calls me middle of night, i had a bad dream are you ok, then says he came by last night, i never saw or heard him, this morning it's all i'm going to the store wife what do you need me to buy.

asking me if miss him, wants me to be like oh honey i miss you, why don't you meet us somewhere, how is your day blah blah blah. i know changing marriage can happen with one person, but it's like he just wants me to pursue him now. WTF? is he now suddenly the lbs? did we go and reverse our roles.

I was coy about "somebody" helping me and he turned disrespectful about me getting "some" in other words i choose not to repeat. when all along his comments have been jstar it would be good for you to have a friend to talk to, no it's ok if you date and now he's all angry.

this is frustrating and now i'm even more confused. i told him i don't know what i feel, that what has been going on is not working for me. i feel like a broken record and i am under the belief he is stupidest husband.