Not Me...Ever part 2

[Gardener]

(((Gardener)))

As long as there is no sadness Nope.

I am at peace with my decision...Peace. How wonderful.

I still hurt so very much but over time that will grow to something else. Yep

I can't allow him to control me/my emotions anymore...Yep. And it will take either continued effort or a single, simple, letting go and releasing it. I'm beginning to discover that the latter works quite well.

He will never know the extent of the damage he did by his actions and I am ok with that as well...
And I believe that that damage will heal - and disappear - over time until you (and I and all of us) no longer feel the extent of it. We'll just feel the strength that we gained through enduring it, prevailing, and working so very hard, selflessly - and nobly - through it.

I can walk with my head held high knowing I did everything I could to save my marriage and if I die tomorrow, God will know I did my very best and that is the place I needed to get to. Damn straight. He already knows this. Welcome to this place. I've been here only a short while. It's a pretty good place, actually. And I hear it gets better and better. Every day is a NEW day!