Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Thank you, Cutter! I honestly am not reading into the hamburger outing as anything other than lunch and will just be sure to be a fun companion is all! Seriously, there have been too many little surprises that I have read into and nothing has happened. So I am honestly not making anymore expectations and will do as DB coach says which is to take the event at face value: lunch at a place with WH. Enjoy myself and that is all there is to think of it! (well, making a good impression)

Tonight...I will be making a new Mexican dinner with tomatillos. It should take 45 minutes to make, so I will start it after I work out, then clean up right away after eating. Then I will only have to be with WH for maybe 20-30 minutes out of 2.5 hours.

I tried to figure out a way to reduce the contact time to 10 minutes but ran into a problem eating first then working out--got a stomach ache and I was still exercising when S was trying to go to sleep.

I can at least be busy on the internet or something while he is here. And 20-30 minutes of contact isn't that bad I don't think. My goal is to be distant and mysterious. I repeat this to myself when he's here and it helps me stick to it!!