Positive developments? #2

[jon2911]

Finally some time to update.

Just sent my resume to a friend who has a customer support/web development position at his company. It's a startup, but a few more employees, an office, more pay and full benefits. We'll see. W said she thought I was happy and wasn't looking, and I said it always helps to keep options open. If for nothing else to let my current boss counter-offer with a raise. Feels good.

W came in at 11:00 Friday and I met her as she was pulling in. We watched Jimmy Kimmell and hung out. All liquor stores were closed for New Year's Day (boo, how does that make any sense?), so I brought some Jack and Diet Coke. It was awkward at first, but her attitude was much different than last time. She warmed up gradually, and let me stay the night. It was a VERY fun night

I left at 6:00 AM, caught a disc golf game with a friend, then met W for lunch and some shopping. We looked at netbooks and phones that she's thinking about at a Verizon store. It was her idea, and she kept asking if I minded. It's nice to help her with something I know a lot about. We've talked a couple times since then about whether she can cancel her Cable internet and just get a netbook plan.

She left, and I had a 45-minute drive to Fort Worth for the poker tournament, so I talked to her the whole way there. I won 3rd place! $60! That's $160 this week between fantasy football and poker. I should just go pro While in Fort Worth I checked out a club my band is playing on the 28th. It's an extremely cool place, and we're not a country band but it should be fun:
http://lolasfortworth.com

Called and told her about the poker and the gig, and that I'm on a roll. She seemed very interested, asking about the date and location. I forget how much a country fan W is, and she loves the Stockyards. We talked until 1:00 AM.

Nice talk yesterday as well, and she just called me while typing this. I had mentioned hearing a lot of talk about the show "Community", and she just watched the first episode on Hulu and loved it. I didn't know you can sign into the site, friend other people, etc. I joked that we should friend each other and she did it, but said "why not just call and say that a show's good?" We joked about the Facebook generation and how she's down on it.

At the end, she said "I didn't say anything crazy in the night, did I?"

I had talked with a friend about this, and responded it's not just that it doesn't bother me, I know she has nightmares, but I really appreciate her letting me stay. And I wouldn't take anything seriously she says.

"It just makes me feel weak, you know?"

I told her that makes sense. Then I told her I had to go.

She probably was really talking about the ML, and making sure I don't take it too seriously. Maybe I should have just said that. I don't think it means much in the big picture of getting back together, but it was a great night, and helped me to remember why I'm still fighting for this.

The 180's seem to be working, so I'm keeping them up and watching what happens. Right now that means calling her once a day. I'm talking more about the things I'm excited about at church, my band, or even the huge Cowboys win yesterday, and not really worrying about her reaction any more. I'm not really worrying about pursuing actions either.

Come to think of it, maybe we're all the way back to the Romance stage? It definitely feels like the excitement of dating again. We were there a year ago, but then all my job stuff happened, the tax audit, 2009 just sucked and was a huge step back. Time to set some goals for 2010!