Regret is an ugly thing. I am sure XH is probably regreting now, but you are doing so well. You have come out of this and started a new life.
If I was being chased, I would curl up like a potato bug and pretend to be dead. I can't run at all...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..