Spouse Suffering From Depression

[Lucky11too]

So News Years...super great in some ways but some hiccups as well. Unfortunately I was hit slightly by the flu bug and I was too nauseous to eat. No good. I could tell H was totally disappointed that the night he had planned wasn't going as planned. So b/c I couldn't eat anyways, we skipped the dinner plans - bummer! =\ We ended up going back to the hotel and enjoying the jacuzzi for a bit. Then we got ready (I made sure to look super hot) and headed back to the sports bar where H works, he grabbed some food and then we headed next door to this club hotspot. B/c H "knows people" we were able to get right in and skip the whole line and cover charge thing. Very cool. We danced for a while and it was just super fun (the music was a little too techno for my taste though). Then we went back to the sports bar to watch the ball drop on TV. It was really slow that night there so there was just a few of us (thank goodness OW wasn't working or I would have killed H for bringing me there. One person that was working that night was H's bartender roommate. haha, kind of funny. We were talking for a bit). At midnight, we had our champagne toast and H gave me a kiss. Then we went back and had a great night at the hotel. Then it started to deteriorate again. H was just diagnosed with severe sleep apnea and it was particularly bad that night. He woke up at one point choking b/c his throat had closed up on him. Very scary. The rest of the night he was just super restless and couldn't sleep (which means I didn't get much sleep - I forgot that one benefit of being single. haha. j/k) Then early the next morning I get a call from my parents that S is super sick and throwing up everywhere, plus my mom is sick now too, so my dad is trying to take care of sick S all by himself. So I have to cut it short and rush right home. S is just miserably sick all day. It was really bad. =\ H stopped by later that night and we watched a movie together snuggled on the couch. It was nice. It's just hard though...we did have a really great time together, but now it's back to reality and H seems to be recoiling a bit...expected yes...but still, hard emotionally for me to take. So Saturday and Sunday were pretty hard on me, dealing with sick S, being slightly sick myself, and missing H... =\ And now it’s back to work this morning…